Perfume Genius - On the Floor

I'm trying But still I close my eyes The dreaming Bringing his face to mine Lock the door The constant buzzing All through the night The fighting Rips me all up inside On the floor I pace, I run my mouth I pray and wait I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) I walk in the light? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? The rise and fall Of his chest on me I'm trying But still it's all I see The violent Current of energy I hide it Away and underneath Lock the door I shake, I promise everyday To change I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) I walk in the light? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? Take this wildness away I'm trying But still I close my eyes The dreaming Bringing his face to mine Out the door I pace, I run my mouth I pray to change I cross out his name on the page (How long 'til) This washes away? (How long 'til) My body is safe? (How long 'til) This heart isn't mine? I just want him in my arms I just want him in my arms